Friday, July 18, 2008

Moving On.

Just came back from burying my hamster which died this morning. I believe she died around 2-4am while i was sleeping. Early morning seeing my hamster laying there dead stunned and shocked me. I wanted to bring her to the vet today but it was too late. She had moved on and left. I cried deep in my heart while faking a smile to cover it. Fuck it. When i carried her up in my palm's. The whole body was stiff and her eyes were 3/4 closed with her last tear in her eyes. I placed her back to her bed and left for school.

I cried deep in my heart while on my way to school. Seeing her dead like that makes me so empty. It was so unexpected for it to leave just like that. I spent the last moments with her yesterday on my desk here and watched her trying to pull though. But she failed to do so. My heart sank deep down into the bottomless pit. What happened cannot be reversed. Even with a time lock. Things won't be better nor worst when time just locks there. Everything is moving forward. No rewind nor pause nor stop but just a Play button.

While burying her,i saw my little brother cried. I felt bad deep in me. The price of death is so heavy. Making an impact to those around me.

I told my lil` brother, "Everything have to move on. Cheer up. She has been with us and we were happy. Now she is gone, just pray and everything will be fine. Burying her wasn't a heart fulfilling job but a painful one. In memories of her will forever be in us."

I'll never forget that very spot where I buried her. MY OWN ADORABLE HAMSTER! ="|

I know it's weird of me to write down about her. I'm just expressing of what I loved the most.

Kelvin Ashley Augustus (The Panda) posted at 9:05 PM.

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